Sherlock Fanfiction: Fevers
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saki101Author: Saki101
Genre: Slash
Rating: PG
Length: ~1700 words
Warning: AU, episode-related, post-The Reichenbach Fall
Disclaimer: I don't own BBC's Sherlock and no money is being made.
Author's notes: This is a continuation of The Other Experiments Series which forms an AU frame for the Experiments Series. Fevers follows after Immunology.
Excerpt: “Text me if the fever comes back. In a few cases, it has come back stronger.”
Fevers
“Stay in today. Get some more sleep,” Mike said on the landing in the morning. “Don’t come down. I’ll let myself out.” He turned towards the stairs. “Text me if the fever comes back. In a few cases, it has come back stronger.” John huffed. “I mean it, call me,” Mike repeated, glancing back at John and waiting until John looked directly at him and nodded. “All right,” Mike said and headed down the stairs.
John half closed the door, his hand lingering on the handle. The front door thumped as it shut. He felt the push of air. His steps were quick to the window. He watched Mike cross the road, leaned his forehead against the cool glass. Maybe the fever’s back already. John could feel his heartbeat picking up. I could text him. He’d come back. “Come back,” John murmured. But he wasn’t thinking of Mike.
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Lestrade tapped on the door as he pushed it open. He didn’t wait for an invitation.
Mrs Hudson brought up tea of an afternoon, watched a little telly with John sometimes. He left the door ajar for her. She was more often out in the evenings than he was. He’d doze on the couch with the telly murmuring, his nose pressed into the cushions, to offset the wakeful hours near dawn. She’d look in when she came home, shut the door quietly if John were sleeping.
John heard a man clearing his throat. He tensed, hoped for the miracle, eliminated possibilities. Not Sherlock, not Mycroft, not Mike, not a stranger. Lestrade. John looked over his shoulder. Greg. John sat up, shook his head, ran his hand over his face.
“Force of habit,” Greg said.
John tilted his head in agreement, his muscles easing.
Lestrade gestured at the nearest chair. “May I?” he said.
John lifted his chin at it, his lips quirking into a shape that wasn't a smile. Don’t wait to be asked in, but ask to sit. There hadn’t usually been any time to sit, and when there was, there was time to ask...or to apologise. A bit of everything this visit, John thought. He smiled at that. He’d noticed that he was trying to imitate Sherlock’s thinking, using the word “obviously” more than he ever had. It had hurt the first time he’d heard it after…then he found his ears pricking up whenever it was said, started using it frequently himself. He could do it at the clinic. No one, except Sarah, would get the connection and it was often appropriate. People did that when they lived together, began using the same words and phrases, references, cadences. So why not when you died together?
John refocused his attention on Lestrade, who was waiting patiently, still standing, regarding him. “Tea?” John asked, rising. “Are you off-duty? Something stronger?”
Lestrade held out his hand, indicated that John should sit. “Later maybe.”
John sat and the tension came back. He rotated his neck to ease the pain it brought, waited for Lestrade to sit and continue.
“You know that tip you passed to me, from the homeless girl?” Lestrade asked. John nodded. “I passed it on to Dimmock. It was worth following up, but anything I touch that’s not routine doesn’t proceed very rapidly these days.” Greg looked down at his hands and back up at John. “Maybe I’ll take a beer, if you have one.”
John got up. Mycroft had probably intervened to make sure Greg didn’t get dismissed or suspended, had done something so John didn’t get charged with assaulting the chief superintendent. That ASBO had disappeared as well. The court date had been cancelled and never rescheduled. No record. Which was good because it would be hard to practice medicine with a criminal record. Maybe Sherlock had fixed the ASBO, but it could have been Mycroft. John didn’t like to think about Mycroft for more than an instant, the train of thought always led somewhere dismal, but he had to admit that Mycroft had done things to lessen the collateral damage. Damn. The train had already gone too far.
Greg followed John into the kitchen, glanced around at the relative lack of scientific equipment. John couldn't give it away, had taken out some of what Mrs Hudson had boxed for a couple experiments of his own. Little experiments on items around the flat, dark hairs, for example. Touching the glassware, looking through the microscope at a sample on a slide brought Sherlock closer. He wouldn't tell the therapist, wasn't going back there anyway. He had only gone once after that first time, to tell her about the job possibility at the clinic, so she wouldn’t set anyone on him. It had been one of the few things Mycroft and Sherlock had wholeheartedly agreed upon. “Fire her,” they had both said. John got the bottles out of the cupboard, grabbed a couple glasses. Lestrade reached around John and took one of the bottles off the counter. John skipped the glass, too.
“We’ve got the Golem in custody,” Greg said when they sat back down in the sitting room.
John leaned all the way back on the sofa, let the beer bottle settle on his thigh and closed his eyes. The feeling spreading through his chest was so warm. He had given the homeless girl a fifty when she’d handed him the slip of paper. It was extravagant, but he’d had one in his wallet and it’s what Sherlock had given her for information. There was cash to spare. Several private clients’ payments had come into the consulting account. John smiled up at the ceiling. Sherlock had called it that when they had stopped by the bank and John ended up signing papers. “To save you having to borrow my cash card,” Sherlock had said. When the recent payments appeared on their online statement, John had felt vindicated. The clients hadn’t used Sherlock’s…they hadn’t used it as an excuse not to pay. Each one had been like a vote of confidence, thank yous in pounds and pence for what Sherlock had done for them. They didn’t care about the shite in the papers because they’d experienced Sherlock firsthand. Their mysteries had been solved, there had been no magic tricks. And now this.
“He’s still helping,” John murmured. He hadn’t meant to say it aloud, but Greg wasn’t likely to mind. He’d had the wisdom to consult Sherlock, had the confidence to recognise when someone else could help, unlike…God. There was another train John tried not to take. It was so much worse than Mycroft’s.
“There’s more,” Lestrade said, putting down his beer and reaching inside his jacket for an envelope. John opened his eyes and leaned forward. Lestrade opened the envelope and slid the photos from inside across the table towards John. “Seen any of them?” he asked.
John looked at the slim, dark-haired man in the top photo and shook his head. Greg reached across the corner of the table and pushed the first picture aside. John’s beer slammed down on the table. Greg waited, watching John’s face, until John put his hand over it. “Here,” he croaked through his fingers.
“Here?” Greg prompted.
John nodded, let his hand fall away. “Here. Twice. A workman doing repairs. Even with everything happening, I noticed. Hard to miss those tattoos. When I got the call that Mrs Hudson had been shot, I barged in the door and she was standing in the hallway next to him on a ladder. She asked me if Sherlock had sorted everything out with the police and I realised…” John stopped. “Who are they?” he finally asked.
“The Golem traded some information. He had sub-contracted them for Moriarty,” Lestrade tapped the first man’s photo. “This one was for me,” he added. “He was at the Yard, a visiting DI from Manchester, supposedly. We got him at Gatwick last night.”
John gaped.
“He looks like the other Manchester bloke. Had all the ID, of course,” Lestrade added. John lifted his eyebrows in question. “The real fellow was on holiday,” Lestrade replied. “Not dead.”
John sighed. “That one was for me?” John asked, pointing at the third photograph. Lestrade nodded, took up his beer and drank while he waited. John thought of the laser dots disappearing from his and Sherlock’s chests when Moriarty snapped his fingers. John squeezed his eyes shut, pictured the body that must have been lying behind Sherlock on the roof. Molly had told him about Moriarty after Sherlock's funeral, before she had hidden her face against Lestrade’s chest. Neither Lestrade or John would have known otherwise. The press had been silent. John had listened to her sobs and stared dry-eyed at Lestrade. Even the hope of killing Moriarty was gone.
John tried to swallow and failed. He reached for his beer, finished the rest of it. “Sherlock had him and Moriarty shot himself rather than call his assassins off?” John said slowly.
“It would appear,” Lestrade said. “There were two signals. One could come from Moriarty and one from Sherlock.”
John’s eyes got very wide as he looked back at Lestrade. “Sherlock’s signal was to jump.”
Greg nodded. “Since Moriarty had a gun, I don’t understand why he didn’t just shoot Sherlock.”
John could hear the voice, strangled with emotion. “I’ll burn the heart right out of you,” he repeated. “It’s what Moriarty said at the pool,” John whispered. “He was willing to die to do that to Sherlock. To make him choose. His life or ours.”
They drank all the beer in the cupboard. The flat was bright when John woke up on the couch. Greg was snoring, stretched out in the chair, his legs over the corner of the coffee table. John made him tea and toast before he left. It was Sunday and there was nowhere John had to be. He spent the rest of the day on the sofa watching the dust motes in the air and wondering what information Sherlock would have been able to deduce from them. When the fever came back, he didn’t text Mike. He stumbled into Sherlock’s bed and slept.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The next part may be read here.
Genre: Slash
Rating: PG
Length: ~1700 words
Warning: AU, episode-related, post-The Reichenbach Fall
Disclaimer: I don't own BBC's Sherlock and no money is being made.
Author's notes: This is a continuation of The Other Experiments Series which forms an AU frame for the Experiments Series. Fevers follows after Immunology.
Excerpt: “Text me if the fever comes back. In a few cases, it has come back stronger.”
“Stay in today. Get some more sleep,” Mike said on the landing in the morning. “Don’t come down. I’ll let myself out.” He turned towards the stairs. “Text me if the fever comes back. In a few cases, it has come back stronger.” John huffed. “I mean it, call me,” Mike repeated, glancing back at John and waiting until John looked directly at him and nodded. “All right,” Mike said and headed down the stairs.
John half closed the door, his hand lingering on the handle. The front door thumped as it shut. He felt the push of air. His steps were quick to the window. He watched Mike cross the road, leaned his forehead against the cool glass. Maybe the fever’s back already. John could feel his heartbeat picking up. I could text him. He’d come back. “Come back,” John murmured. But he wasn’t thinking of Mike.
************
Lestrade tapped on the door as he pushed it open. He didn’t wait for an invitation.
Mrs Hudson brought up tea of an afternoon, watched a little telly with John sometimes. He left the door ajar for her. She was more often out in the evenings than he was. He’d doze on the couch with the telly murmuring, his nose pressed into the cushions, to offset the wakeful hours near dawn. She’d look in when she came home, shut the door quietly if John were sleeping.
John heard a man clearing his throat. He tensed, hoped for the miracle, eliminated possibilities. Not Sherlock, not Mycroft, not Mike, not a stranger. Lestrade. John looked over his shoulder. Greg. John sat up, shook his head, ran his hand over his face.
“Force of habit,” Greg said.
John tilted his head in agreement, his muscles easing.
Lestrade gestured at the nearest chair. “May I?” he said.
John lifted his chin at it, his lips quirking into a shape that wasn't a smile. Don’t wait to be asked in, but ask to sit. There hadn’t usually been any time to sit, and when there was, there was time to ask...or to apologise. A bit of everything this visit, John thought. He smiled at that. He’d noticed that he was trying to imitate Sherlock’s thinking, using the word “obviously” more than he ever had. It had hurt the first time he’d heard it after…then he found his ears pricking up whenever it was said, started using it frequently himself. He could do it at the clinic. No one, except Sarah, would get the connection and it was often appropriate. People did that when they lived together, began using the same words and phrases, references, cadences. So why not when you died together?
John refocused his attention on Lestrade, who was waiting patiently, still standing, regarding him. “Tea?” John asked, rising. “Are you off-duty? Something stronger?”
Lestrade held out his hand, indicated that John should sit. “Later maybe.”
John sat and the tension came back. He rotated his neck to ease the pain it brought, waited for Lestrade to sit and continue.
“You know that tip you passed to me, from the homeless girl?” Lestrade asked. John nodded. “I passed it on to Dimmock. It was worth following up, but anything I touch that’s not routine doesn’t proceed very rapidly these days.” Greg looked down at his hands and back up at John. “Maybe I’ll take a beer, if you have one.”
John got up. Mycroft had probably intervened to make sure Greg didn’t get dismissed or suspended, had done something so John didn’t get charged with assaulting the chief superintendent. That ASBO had disappeared as well. The court date had been cancelled and never rescheduled. No record. Which was good because it would be hard to practice medicine with a criminal record. Maybe Sherlock had fixed the ASBO, but it could have been Mycroft. John didn’t like to think about Mycroft for more than an instant, the train of thought always led somewhere dismal, but he had to admit that Mycroft had done things to lessen the collateral damage. Damn. The train had already gone too far.
Greg followed John into the kitchen, glanced around at the relative lack of scientific equipment. John couldn't give it away, had taken out some of what Mrs Hudson had boxed for a couple experiments of his own. Little experiments on items around the flat, dark hairs, for example. Touching the glassware, looking through the microscope at a sample on a slide brought Sherlock closer. He wouldn't tell the therapist, wasn't going back there anyway. He had only gone once after that first time, to tell her about the job possibility at the clinic, so she wouldn’t set anyone on him. It had been one of the few things Mycroft and Sherlock had wholeheartedly agreed upon. “Fire her,” they had both said. John got the bottles out of the cupboard, grabbed a couple glasses. Lestrade reached around John and took one of the bottles off the counter. John skipped the glass, too.
“We’ve got the Golem in custody,” Greg said when they sat back down in the sitting room.
John leaned all the way back on the sofa, let the beer bottle settle on his thigh and closed his eyes. The feeling spreading through his chest was so warm. He had given the homeless girl a fifty when she’d handed him the slip of paper. It was extravagant, but he’d had one in his wallet and it’s what Sherlock had given her for information. There was cash to spare. Several private clients’ payments had come into the consulting account. John smiled up at the ceiling. Sherlock had called it that when they had stopped by the bank and John ended up signing papers. “To save you having to borrow my cash card,” Sherlock had said. When the recent payments appeared on their online statement, John had felt vindicated. The clients hadn’t used Sherlock’s…they hadn’t used it as an excuse not to pay. Each one had been like a vote of confidence, thank yous in pounds and pence for what Sherlock had done for them. They didn’t care about the shite in the papers because they’d experienced Sherlock firsthand. Their mysteries had been solved, there had been no magic tricks. And now this.
“He’s still helping,” John murmured. He hadn’t meant to say it aloud, but Greg wasn’t likely to mind. He’d had the wisdom to consult Sherlock, had the confidence to recognise when someone else could help, unlike…God. There was another train John tried not to take. It was so much worse than Mycroft’s.
“There’s more,” Lestrade said, putting down his beer and reaching inside his jacket for an envelope. John opened his eyes and leaned forward. Lestrade opened the envelope and slid the photos from inside across the table towards John. “Seen any of them?” he asked.
John looked at the slim, dark-haired man in the top photo and shook his head. Greg reached across the corner of the table and pushed the first picture aside. John’s beer slammed down on the table. Greg waited, watching John’s face, until John put his hand over it. “Here,” he croaked through his fingers.
“Here?” Greg prompted.
John nodded, let his hand fall away. “Here. Twice. A workman doing repairs. Even with everything happening, I noticed. Hard to miss those tattoos. When I got the call that Mrs Hudson had been shot, I barged in the door and she was standing in the hallway next to him on a ladder. She asked me if Sherlock had sorted everything out with the police and I realised…” John stopped. “Who are they?” he finally asked.
“The Golem traded some information. He had sub-contracted them for Moriarty,” Lestrade tapped the first man’s photo. “This one was for me,” he added. “He was at the Yard, a visiting DI from Manchester, supposedly. We got him at Gatwick last night.”
John gaped.
“He looks like the other Manchester bloke. Had all the ID, of course,” Lestrade added. John lifted his eyebrows in question. “The real fellow was on holiday,” Lestrade replied. “Not dead.”
John sighed. “That one was for me?” John asked, pointing at the third photograph. Lestrade nodded, took up his beer and drank while he waited. John thought of the laser dots disappearing from his and Sherlock’s chests when Moriarty snapped his fingers. John squeezed his eyes shut, pictured the body that must have been lying behind Sherlock on the roof. Molly had told him about Moriarty after Sherlock's funeral, before she had hidden her face against Lestrade’s chest. Neither Lestrade or John would have known otherwise. The press had been silent. John had listened to her sobs and stared dry-eyed at Lestrade. Even the hope of killing Moriarty was gone.
John tried to swallow and failed. He reached for his beer, finished the rest of it. “Sherlock had him and Moriarty shot himself rather than call his assassins off?” John said slowly.
“It would appear,” Lestrade said. “There were two signals. One could come from Moriarty and one from Sherlock.”
John’s eyes got very wide as he looked back at Lestrade. “Sherlock’s signal was to jump.”
Greg nodded. “Since Moriarty had a gun, I don’t understand why he didn’t just shoot Sherlock.”
John could hear the voice, strangled with emotion. “I’ll burn the heart right out of you,” he repeated. “It’s what Moriarty said at the pool,” John whispered. “He was willing to die to do that to Sherlock. To make him choose. His life or ours.”
They drank all the beer in the cupboard. The flat was bright when John woke up on the couch. Greg was snoring, stretched out in the chair, his legs over the corner of the coffee table. John made him tea and toast before he left. It was Sunday and there was nowhere John had to be. He spent the rest of the day on the sofa watching the dust motes in the air and wondering what information Sherlock would have been able to deduce from them. When the fever came back, he didn’t text Mike. He stumbled into Sherlock’s bed and slept.
The next part may be read here.
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Date: 2012-03-10 11:41 am (UTC)Faith... against all, faith...
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Date: 2012-03-10 05:52 pm (UTC)When it comes to Sherlock, John has it in his bones.
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Date: 2012-03-10 01:29 pm (UTC)Oh oh oh! You're breaking my heart here - in a good way *g* You've written that state of grief so beautifully... understated, poignant, perfect.
I love it, but especially: I could text him. He’d come back.“Come back,” John murmured. But he wasn't thinking of Mike.
Thank you again for sharing ♥
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Date: 2012-03-10 06:10 pm (UTC)With John, I've been trying to hit that balance between the profundity of his grief and the extent of his fortitude in enduring it. I thought the beautiful lines and their delivery at the grave was a perfect example of that, so that's my emotional model mainly.
Thank you for continuing this journey!
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Date: 2012-03-10 03:42 pm (UTC)That is a most amazing line, conveying so much in such a simple, direct way. But you write so well always - even the description of the door closing is perfect!
Keeping it short as the Hub is still bucking me off the broadband, but it is wonderful, and fascinating the way you tie up the loose ends left by the BBC version.
John didn’t like to think about Mycroft for more than an instant, the train of thought always led somewhere dismal
er, could we sue the film-makers? If I think about Mycroft for more than an instant I see a naked Stephen Fry again.
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Date: 2012-03-11 01:21 am (UTC)I chuckled for a long while when I read this. Nude Stephen was such a striking image. Much as I admire SF's work generally (I am in love with his Jeeves, for example), I far, far prefer Gatiss' Mycroft, both as written and as performed.
I admire and very much appreciate your fortitude in getting a comment through with this continued BT aggravation. (Finding your comments makes me very happy!) When BT settles down, don't forget to request an Easter Egg over on MFUWSS (http://mfuwss.livejournal.com/423092.html#comments).
I am so pleased you liked John calling Sherlock back. I was trying for something in the mood of his "Just stop this."
Thank you! ♥
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Date: 2012-03-14 04:07 am (UTC)Ow. Yes. The way John and Sherlock are written in the BBC series, they seem to _need_ each other even more than Holmes and Watson did in ACD's stories. And the way Sherlock dies in TRF. I cannot see John coping well, when his heart has been torn apart.
I enjoyed the scene with Lestrade. John returns repeatedly to warm thoughts of Sherlock, of how much he owes him (although it is not worded that way)--a reference to TRF. I'm glad that the police (w/ Mycroft's help?) are tracking the snipers, but gladder still that John is learning why Sherlock had to jump. I suspect John will still feel some guilt, but he at least can know that he did not misunderstand Sherlock so profoundly. I suspect BBC!John would be utterly blindsided by Sherlock killing himself.
The small details! John experimenting with Sherlock's hair. I can easily see how his grief, plus promptings from his own body (thanks to the experiment) would cause him to do that. Excellent.
It looks like you are using science fiction to explain why John and Sherlock have to remain apart for now, but for John and Sherlock's sakes, I hope that the separation is shorter than canon. D:
I hope John's decision to not call Mike does not have negative repercussions. It sounds like a relapse could be dangerous.
Looking forward to see how this all plays out!
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Date: 2012-03-14 08:30 pm (UTC)Oh, yes. MF's portrayal of John's reaction communicated that, I felt, his determination to know, his near collapse and then his reassertion of control. I was very pleased with what he said to Sherlock at the cemetary, but still was pretty shell-shocked myself after the episode!
The series seemed to have changed trajectory a little with their relationship in the second season and there are interactions that seem emotionally contradictory to other interactions. It makes them great for fanfic because instances can be put forward to support a host of different interpretations, but I haven't seen a way to make them all make sense.
I have thought a lot about those three years and they just seem so long.
I'm pleased you liked the scene with Lestrade because in some ways I thought it might have been too long. I'm fond of Lestrade and thought I might have been indulging that a bit.
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Date: 2012-09-21 04:22 am (UTC)There are so many lovely images: Mrs. Hudson watching TV with John, Lestrade reaching right past the glasses for the bottle, John lying on the sofa watching dust motes... I love that stuff, it makes the story come alive!
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Date: 2012-09-21 08:58 pm (UTC)I needed to bring some comfort to John, to the others, too, but mainly John. That shot of him alone, barefoot, in the sitting room, made me picture it all very clearly. And I thought their (Mrs Hudson's, Lestrade's, John's) togetherness would survive and help them all at least a little. I am tickled you felt some of that came through. ♥ ♥